Living in California I've noticed a lot of (and probably have been from time to time) two very specific types of people. There's the person who chases acclaim- or fame- or popularity- or buzz/hype/attention/etc. and the more that it eludes them- the more bitter they become. The more they remind me of how it felt to see the girl I liked making out with the jerk boyfriend who in my mind didn't deserve her. Then there's those who gather a measure of attention and become constantly vigilant of it fading away, growing stagnant or moving on to someone else- and it reminds me of the times when I had the girl and was always worried that she'd figure out that she could do better and cheat on me. Neither side of that coin was enjoyable. Coveting praise and popularity can turn bitterness into a drug that makes you feel pleasure in knowing you've been unfairly overlooked- but when that attention is given to you- you simply want more and can never appreciate the praise because you need more and more of it to get the same high and you become suspicious and envious of those who might take some of your spotlight. It's a miserable spiral of disappointment and frustration and the best way to stop the decent is to see that both aspects can be damaging- find a definition of who you are beyond how many people praise you and chase a more self satisfying kind of success.